Perception

Survival Guide: Living in a Psych Ward

Negative Feedback Loops “How could you do this to us again? You’re fucking pathetic and I’m tired of you embarrassing me,” he said, snickering and hissing in his whispering voice.  I had just quit my six-figure job a month before to follow a dream and had no certainties it would work out.  It was beginning… Continue reading Survival Guide: Living in a Psych Ward

Perception

Error: Out of Service

Restless, Irritable, and Discontent “This better be a fuckin’ emergency,” I said, glaring at my phone as it vibrated for the second time.  I hate that.  I hate when I get called twice in a row.  There’s a reason I didn’t answer the first time, so why would you call again?  I don’t accidentally miss… Continue reading Error: Out of Service

Perception, Recovery

Manageability for the Stagnant Over-thinker

“What would have to happen for you to believe in yourself?” My squad of misfits and I had an awesome group discussion today.  Disobediently, some of them came back for my second group…which I allowed of course.  Even if they don’t really want recovery or are unsure, I’m just glad I can bring a little… Continue reading Manageability for the Stagnant Over-thinker

Perception

The Unassuming Paradox of Love

the gift of loveWe both looked out the car window into the darkness of the park at my new friend, “Eric,” grabbing the top of his head staggering back to the car.  I predicted I was going to be $3000 poorer by the looks of things, which I was more than happy to accept at… Continue reading The Unassuming Paradox of Love

Perception

How Tinder Taught Me Authenticity

Be Yourself.  You have to live with you forever. “Huh?” I mumbled to my 32-year-old, red headed Tinder date, making some half-assed effort at attempting a delay in response while reassuring her I was listening. I had displayed unbreakable eye contact to falsely signify my commitment to unwavering attentiveness. Attention? Yes, she had captivated my… Continue reading How Tinder Taught Me Authenticity

Perception

The Justification for the Judgmental

Have you ever felt so uncomfortable with yourself that it prevented you from doing something?  Ever felt like the repercussions of failure would be too shameful or embarrassing to deal with?  Me too! Still do sometimes.  Although I’m not perfect, I have a pretty good handle on it nowadays.  I realized this the other day when… Continue reading The Justification for the Judgmental